I read something the other day about writing down things for your children - things about yourself, your life, your wisdom, your stories....anything to pass on to them as they get older so they can learn who you really are. That you're more than just a "mom"...you're a person with the world of experience to share.
In explaining this project, the author provided a long list of things to write about and the first one was a random list of 20 things about yourself... I already did this on this blog :) Next on the list was a list of three legitimate fears and why...so here we go:
1.) Spiders... no brainer...legitimately scared of them and I wish I could figure out how it started. Think it has to do with them being sneaky...they can be anywhere at any time. Move a piece of paper...BOOM...spider. Walk outside your door, and walk into a web... and the list goes on and on.
2.) Failure...in all forms. I've failed at so many things so far in life and hope that I've learned something along the way to keep the same failure from happening again. Failure to me means I was careless somewhere along the way - I didn't prepare enough, I didn't pay attention. It's a lack of something that I should have controlled better.
3.) Abandonment and loneliness - I need to feel needed and appreciated. I live for being wanted. My first instinct is to protect and care for another person. My biggest fear is that no one will love or care for me that same way. That I'm not going to be important enough and something or someone else will take them away and I'll be left alone. I've been left before - by parents, by my husband, by my brother - people who meant the world to me and shouldn't ever leave me while they're still living. Trusting that another person won't do that to me when the most important people in my world already did it...it's nearly impossible.
