My first reaction was to laugh - thinking of the old tv show, Ally McBeal. Ally had theme songs, she had music playing in her head as she walked to work, as she went about her day. She made an effort to change her music to suit her mood. I loved her character so much...the conflict she went through. Back when I watched the show, my life was so different. I couldn't really relate to her at all, but enjoyed the entertaiment. Back then, I seemingly had all I ever wanted. I had the guy, I had the "stable" relationship. I was moving foward on a path that was going to see me married, with a house and kids. I had NO idea what it was like to have lost the love of my life. I didn't quite get her suffering then...it was just a tv show with great music, good writers and weekly laughs, with a little bit of crying. The show introduced me to Josh Groban (random, but I do love that man's voice) and his episode is probably the only one I remember with such clarity...not quite sure why? He was a highschool student who sued the school's popular girl into going to prom with him. In the end, he didn't get the prom date, but he did sing to her...from his heart. The pain, the love in that voice... amazing.
Ally McBeal: Love isn't always enough.
Larry: Yeah, it is. You go without it long enough and you realize it's everything
So, what's up with the quote? Other than being randomly placed in the middle of a post? It speaks to me... As I browsed "most memorable McBeal quotes", this one jumped at me. And, it makes me think - I've been loved by someone in his own way for 18 years now. But, at the same time, its not enough that he loves me. Because, I lack so much more - the friendship, the respect, the mutual adoration, which to me makes the love transcend blah love to become LOVE love. The love that you realize is missing when it's truly not there in your life. The love that's secure, that gives you that confidence that when you're old and grouchy, you'll have that person sitting next to you, not seeing you as old and grouchy, but as the person they fell for a million years ago.
All these thoughts conjured up with one simple question - what is my theme song? For today, my theme song is:
