I had every intention of posting something profound and meaningful at the first of the year, but was sidetracked by life.... wouldn't you know it? Posts would pop into my head, but at the time, I just wasn't as inspired as I needed to be to create something worthy of you, my dear readers and faithful fans :) Totally didn't want to embark on the cheezy, yet oh so expected "2011 Resolution List" either. Especially since I do have fans and some followers who will hold me accountable.
But, for those really wondering what I want to do with myself in 2011 - here it is:
APPRECIATE THE HAPPINESS AND JOY IN MY LIFE
EMBRACE LOVE AS IT COMES TO ME... STOP LOOKING FOR IT
DON'T SETTLE FOR LESS THAN I DESERVE
REALIZE THAT MATERIAL POSSESSIONS ARE MEANINGLESS
I'm turning 36 tomorrow....... 36 years old. Yep, that's right. I'm THAT old now...ever closer to 40. A year ago, age wasn't an issue or concern, I was in denial or something. For some reason, I just felt as though I was eternally 25, young, spirited, and ready to take on the world, felt as though I would have all I ever wanted within reach and that I would be loved and appreciated for being ME. Now, here I am... still spirited... still have that "youthful" glow about me according to those who love me enough to keep my ego in check. Take on the world though? I just want to be able to tackle my personal challenges once and for all... maybe then, the world will open up in front of me and challenge me to a throw down, which, I am fairly certain I could win. All I ever wanted within reach? Apparently, all I ever really wanted was just an illusion. I need to really figure out the Needs vs the Wants. Loved and appreciated for being ME? yeah, you all are awesome for keeping that part going for me-THANK YOU for that!
So, for my birthday, I have NOT A CLUE what I'm doing to celebrate. Tonight, the princess and I are making cupcakes for her class snack. I was invited to watch "Monster Trucks" at the Verizon Center, but vetoed that option immediately. So much wrong with that and I can't really put it in a cohesive sentence to explain why. I'm not THAT redneck evidently, because not a single bone in my body got even slightly excited at the prospect of watching big loud trucks crush the shit out of each other to the cheering hoots and hollers of a class of people I tend to avoid, even at Walmart. Then, there's the fact that I've never asked to go to a Monster Truck Rally, or even hinted that it would be cool to go for ME. Now, take my kids on some fun filled family night, perhaps. But, as a gift to spend my birthday, who are you kidding? I can't even give that an "A" for effort. That is an epic FAIL in my book of thoughtful things to do for someone's birthday whom you've known for 17 years.
Honestly, I just want the day to go by without drama attached. :)
But, for those really wondering what I want to do with myself in 2011 - here it is:
APPRECIATE THE HAPPINESS AND JOY IN MY LIFE
EMBRACE LOVE AS IT COMES TO ME... STOP LOOKING FOR IT
DON'T SETTLE FOR LESS THAN I DESERVE
REALIZE THAT MATERIAL POSSESSIONS ARE MEANINGLESS
I'm turning 36 tomorrow....... 36 years old. Yep, that's right. I'm THAT old now...ever closer to 40. A year ago, age wasn't an issue or concern, I was in denial or something. For some reason, I just felt as though I was eternally 25, young, spirited, and ready to take on the world, felt as though I would have all I ever wanted within reach and that I would be loved and appreciated for being ME. Now, here I am... still spirited... still have that "youthful" glow about me according to those who love me enough to keep my ego in check. Take on the world though? I just want to be able to tackle my personal challenges once and for all... maybe then, the world will open up in front of me and challenge me to a throw down, which, I am fairly certain I could win. All I ever wanted within reach? Apparently, all I ever really wanted was just an illusion. I need to really figure out the Needs vs the Wants. Loved and appreciated for being ME? yeah, you all are awesome for keeping that part going for me-THANK YOU for that!
So, for my birthday, I have NOT A CLUE what I'm doing to celebrate. Tonight, the princess and I are making cupcakes for her class snack. I was invited to watch "Monster Trucks" at the Verizon Center, but vetoed that option immediately. So much wrong with that and I can't really put it in a cohesive sentence to explain why. I'm not THAT redneck evidently, because not a single bone in my body got even slightly excited at the prospect of watching big loud trucks crush the shit out of each other to the cheering hoots and hollers of a class of people I tend to avoid, even at Walmart. Then, there's the fact that I've never asked to go to a Monster Truck Rally, or even hinted that it would be cool to go for ME. Now, take my kids on some fun filled family night, perhaps. But, as a gift to spend my birthday, who are you kidding? I can't even give that an "A" for effort. That is an epic FAIL in my book of thoughtful things to do for someone's birthday whom you've known for 17 years.
Honestly, I just want the day to go by without drama attached. :)
