Where is this Going?

I named this picture when I saved it originally as "where is this going?"   Something about the path in the woods and not seeing the beginning or the end of the journey.

This is sort of where I am right now...enjoying what's in front of me, day by day...but wanting so badly to know where the road is taking me.  

For 2015, my epiphany star to follow is CONTENTMENT.  I think for years now, I've been so focused on what's at the end of the path that I'm failing to see, feel, touch, and embrace each moment of the journey.   I've failed to feel the moments of gratitude...

This journey since 2010 has been one of pure faith -  I had to take a step without any idea of how it was going to turn out, and hoped that when I took that first step, the stairway would appear before me.  Every bit of the way has been a blind walk on an entirely new, unpredictable path.  It's exhausting sometimes - not knowing what's actually going to happen.  Just knowing deep down that how life is now is a lot better than it was.  That's all I can cling to day by day - that today is better than yesterday, and resting my head at night with the intention that tomorrow will be better than today.






Oh Patsy... Why did you leave so soon?

Sweet dreams of you

Every night I go through

Why can't I forget you and start my life anew

Instead of having sweet dreams about you

You don't love me, it's plain

I should know I'll never wear your ring

I should hate you the whole night through

Instead of having sweet dreams about you

Sweet dreams of you

Things I know can't come true

Why can't I forget the past, start loving someone new

Instead of having sweet dreams about you

Wow, could Patsy Kline nail my emotions in one song or what?  I had downloaded this song a LONG time ago, and not entirely remembering what sparked it beyond wanting to have some really old country songs on my iPod.  And, looking back, I never imagined that the lyrics would fit my universal shift so perfectly. 
 
My head keeps telling me what I need to do...how things aren't what I had thought they were and to pursue something further is only going to lead to something worse for me down the road.  Yes, that pretty much opened up the wound in my heart and the salt shaker that is my mind just dumped away.  Felt like I couldn't breathe, couldn't think...actually felt physically ill. 
 
But, you know what?  I am starting to trust my gut a little more each day.  I'm looking for those signs - the apparent, in my face signs (like someone choosing to not talk to me anymore) and the not so apparent that I'll figure out as I go.  It was all about the signs 2 years ago, so I need to stop, look and listen again.  Some call it God talking to me, others call it the Universe...whatever it is, I'm hearing it louder as I go along and it's getting MUCH harder to drown it out. 
 
Time for new dreams.........and to keep trusting that I'm doing the right thing.