Attracting What You Need, Just When You Need It

Every now and then, something happens that makes me believe in the laws of attraction. I'll forget for a little while...going about my day to day life, not paying any attention to the energy I'm giving off, to the thoughts manifesting in my mind, to the wishes, the dreams, the signs that are around all the time.

For years, I was unhappy in my relationship...YEARS!!!  I buried the feelings so deep and gave every attempt to make myself happy in the situation I was in.  I felt so strongly that I could make it work, I could easily jam a square peg in a round hole.  There is a line in Jerry Maguire that would echo through my head, "I can make this work".  And, over and over people would tell me, that relationships are work, marriage requires work.  So, to me, all this struggle was normal.  It was supposed to be like that...no one is 100% happy in a marriage.  No one is a perfect fit for another person.  It just doesn't work that way...or does it?

I found a letter that my ex-husband wrote to me when we were dating.  I want to guess that it was from 13 years ago, when we were struggling through our relationship.  We must have had another fight and apparently, according to the letter, I said I wasn't happy.  In the letter, my ex defended his actions, addressed the inadequacies in our relationship and promised to be all I needed him to be.  He wasn't affectionate, he didn't say he loved me, he kept me from friends because he was scared I'd leave him if I got too happy with them, he also kept me from my family as a way to protect me from disappointments they often left me with.  All the promises and14 years later, that they never actually changed.  I overlooked it, thought I was being greedy in my expectations, settled into a way of life that was just enough, but yet so not enough in the end to allow us to be strong enough to endure all the trials our marriage went through. 

All I wanted out of my ex-husband, I've discovered in another without really looking for it.  I found someone comfortable with showing love, hand holding, kisses and kindness.  He's embraced my family, cares about my children, isn't threatened by friendships I've had since childhood.  I have no idea what the future holds, but I'm certain that every day, I'll be grateful to have had him walk into my life at just the perfect moment.  I'll thank God for the second chance at happiness and I'll continue to keep my heart open for all the possibilities.